Penat jadi kuat.
Bismillahirrahmanirrahim.
Assalamualaikum all :)
I think I'm going to write in English today.
Sometimes it is easier to understand what you are trying to convey in English , I guess.
So I just went through old photos from my childhood (not really, it was about few years ago when I was about 14 years old (I cant remember).
The reason why I'm writing this is because I used to think I'm not like the other girls who has been so matured, at least in the way they look.
I had been so insecure with this kind of girl because I thought I'm nothing like them.
I did not like myself and I thought everyone did not like me, the way I look, the way I talk , the way I treat them . Well, I even had a fever (this is the worst) because I thought no one wanted to listen to me, no one wanted to be friends with me.
I thought I was nothing to be compared to them. I am childish and immature.
aku tak kuat masa tu, aku tak pergi pada Allah. aku ni macam tak ber Tuhan.
Teruk sangat.
macam orang depressed. tapi Allah tetap anugerahkan kawan-kawan yang faham dan ibu bapa yang concern.
Ayah cakap
'ayin kalau ada masalah bagitahu lah.. mama ayah risau'
Let me tell you , we shall not let this way of thinking overcomes our confidence in our time of living.
It is crucial for us to stay positive , and not to let anyone crash our dreams on being happy.
You are who you are and no one can say beside that.
Kalau minda kita fikir yang bukan-bukan tu just get rid of it! It is maybe the shaytaan who wants us to be unhappy and ungrateful .
I have experienced it before.
Kalau kita rasa orang cakap yang bukan-bukan pasal kita, husnuzon.
Sangka baik.
Like seriously, betul ke dia orang cakap yang tak baik?
:)
In the other way, we shall improve ourselves. Kalau betul lah ada orang yang mengata aku kat belakang, mungkin kita memang ada salah.
Mungkin kita memang selekeh, perangai tak semenggah, tak hormat orang.
Mungkin juga.
Aku tak sempurna dan tak akan jadi.
Aku anggap rasa insecure aku dan rasa tak yakin dengan diri sendiri tu sebagai ujian, penguat bagi diri aku. Aku kena yakin dengan diri sendiri.
Kalau aku tak yakin, siapa yang nak yakinkan aku?
Takkan aku nak ke belakang , dan tengok orang lain sahaja yang maju sampai bila-bila?
Aku bukan sesiapa tapi aku dah malas nak fikir apa orang fikir.
Aku ada prinsip,
kalau apa yang aku buat itu betul dan tak langgar syarak, aku akan teruskan.
Sebab peluang dalam hidup ni tak banyak.
Jangan selalu lepaskan.
Dosa pada masa lalu tu sebagai nasihat dan pengajaran.
9:48 PM
25/12/2017
Imperfect & sinner .
Gambar dari Google dan saya :)
Assalamualaikum all :)
I think I'm going to write in English today.
Sometimes it is easier to understand what you are trying to convey in English , I guess.
So I just went through old photos from my childhood (not really, it was about few years ago when I was about 14 years old (I cant remember).
The reason why I'm writing this is because I used to think I'm not like the other girls who has been so matured, at least in the way they look.
I had been so insecure with this kind of girl because I thought I'm nothing like them.
I did not like myself and I thought everyone did not like me, the way I look, the way I talk , the way I treat them . Well, I even had a fever (this is the worst) because I thought no one wanted to listen to me, no one wanted to be friends with me.
I thought I was nothing to be compared to them. I am childish and immature.
aku tak kuat masa tu, aku tak pergi pada Allah. aku ni macam tak ber Tuhan.
Teruk sangat.
macam orang depressed. tapi Allah tetap anugerahkan kawan-kawan yang faham dan ibu bapa yang concern.
Ayah cakap
'ayin kalau ada masalah bagitahu lah.. mama ayah risau'
Let me tell you , we shall not let this way of thinking overcomes our confidence in our time of living.
It is crucial for us to stay positive , and not to let anyone crash our dreams on being happy.
You are who you are and no one can say beside that.
Kalau minda kita fikir yang bukan-bukan tu just get rid of it! It is maybe the shaytaan who wants us to be unhappy and ungrateful .
I have experienced it before.
Kalau kita rasa orang cakap yang bukan-bukan pasal kita, husnuzon.
Sangka baik.
Like seriously, betul ke dia orang cakap yang tak baik?
:)
In the other way, we shall improve ourselves. Kalau betul lah ada orang yang mengata aku kat belakang, mungkin kita memang ada salah.
Mungkin kita memang selekeh, perangai tak semenggah, tak hormat orang.
Mungkin juga.
Aku tak sempurna dan tak akan jadi.
Aku anggap rasa insecure aku dan rasa tak yakin dengan diri sendiri tu sebagai ujian, penguat bagi diri aku. Aku kena yakin dengan diri sendiri.
Kalau aku tak yakin, siapa yang nak yakinkan aku?
Takkan aku nak ke belakang , dan tengok orang lain sahaja yang maju sampai bila-bila?
Aku bukan sesiapa tapi aku dah malas nak fikir apa orang fikir.
Aku ada prinsip,
kalau apa yang aku buat itu betul dan tak langgar syarak, aku akan teruskan.
Sebab peluang dalam hidup ni tak banyak.
Jangan selalu lepaskan.
Dosa pada masa lalu tu sebagai nasihat dan pengajaran.
9:48 PM
25/12/2017
Imperfect & sinner .
Gambar dari Google dan saya :)
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